That crazy thing called confidence....

So, as of late, I have had a life changing epiphany. I'm not perfect, nor do I want to be. I've had an ultimate confidence boost in a time of my life that has seemed one of the worst, and it's a more than welcome change. I hold my head high, smile all the time, dance around badly like I used to not caring who is looking, and know that I'm worth something to myself, if not to anyone. It's a great feeling.

I think part of the change came from getting an RA position here at college, of which I have wanted for a while and knew I would be good. After all my hard work and sweat and tears, something is paying off and going right. And the best part, other people have seen that my personality is shiny and bright.

I have always thought being over-confident was annoying, since I have seen people who have an abundant amount of confidence make fools of themselves because they thought TOO much of themselves. I don't feel that right now, granted I'm not THAT flamboyant either. Haha! But really, it's nice to have a smile that is genuine that isn't even caused by some outward source, but rather from inside.

On an unrelated note, I have been missing home a lot lately, or rather a place to call home. I was utterly frustrated while filing my taxes because I couldn't figure out where the hell I could claim residency. Maryland was telling me one thing while Indiana gave a whole nother reasoning. Very disheartening and depressing. As my dad said though, "The curse of an Army brat." I don't know if I'll ever get away from that. In the same thought though --- it's looking less and less like I'm going to go back to Maryland after I graduate. The deciding factor, I suppose, is if I find this "love" thing that people tend to base their lives on. ;)

Listening to at the moment:
"Fire and Rain" James Taylor
"Come on Get Higher" Matt Nathanson
"Sunny Came Home"